hey..
its so so so hard.
i understand where youre coming from. ive been diagnosed with bulimia because i purge usually at weekends over the minimum criteria for bulimia which is 2-3 times.. but still afterwards and still at other times i overeat. i eat and i eat and i eat with no compensatory behaviours. with no control, i just shovel it in and bear the consequences of feeling like total %#@&#! for a few days afterwards which usually results in me overeating again and again and again.
its a really horrible viscious cycle. all i can say is that i understand how you feel and im here if youd like to talk.
i also think mlpHolmes message is really inspiring, the live for today / one step at a time / minimal attitude fills me with a type of relief and contentment to an extent because it lowers and makes realistic those unnatainable expectations that people with eating disorders usually inflict on themselves.
hope today goes ok for you,
warm wishes from the uk
x