Dear Deilla,

I do understand you.

I've been withdrawing myself from pretty much everyone/everything over the past few years. I have recently begun to take some steps that are "bold" for me, going to some places with strangers around.

However when I see somewhere a person that I know from old times, I tend to escape/hide myself. I would really want to get rid of this...
I have this because I have hurt my family real bad, and any people that I come in contact with that know me in relation with my family (I do not live with them any more, as they do not want me to remind them the pain that I have caused them), I escape from them because I feel shame.

I have never heard of Gaia TV, so I will check out from internet what it is.

I have recently started to read about spiritual awakening and related stuff and to do a bit of yoga and meditation and qi gong exercises. My problem is generally that I get excited about new things, but get tired of them easily and want something new. What I truly want is to learn to live so that I would be OK with myself, without self-pity etc. That I would not feel fake nor act fake. That I would accept my faults and find peace with them.

I was hoping to get something related to this from this spiritual group. I have no idea, though, what does a "group" mean really :-) , I'm quite new to this forum.

Sorry about telling all this about myself now.

Just wishing you all the best in getting rid of your stress and finding your needed satisfaction from watching the Gaia TV.

Happy New Year!!!