30-40 is more suitable for me than 21-30. The latter age group seem to be very different from me, despite being close in age.

I do hope as well that I find a girlfriend. I do not think that it is gloating to say that I do not believe that I am not the unwanted, ugly guy that I have for most of my life believed to be.

I could try cafés perhaps, but really people do not use libraries as much. Especially here, people read books online rather in on paper. I would have to think hard about that one.

As New Year is just arrived, I feel a certain sadness yet a certain relief. The pain of the last decade, plus my 20s, is no longer. A new year and a new decade. I can start anew. I really do hope that luck turns around in life this new year.

Just this morning I had caught some sort of nasal viral infection. I became so depressed, that it affected me and my immune system probably got substantially lowered. I really do not think that I deserve to keep having my health destroyed like this due to low self-esteem and feeling depressed due to being single.