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Originally Posted by BethRags
It's my belief that BP does affect our social interaction. At least, I know it affects mine. The few friends I have are women I've known from early school years. So we've been friends for over fifty years. And I have one friend I met twenty years ago. But even those friends are not people I'm extremely close to.
Every time I attempt to make a new friend it just doesn't happen. And I admit that I don't really want to make new friends. Honestly, I prefer my own company. And it's challenging enough to deal with my own mind, let alone having to cope with someone else's.
Something else that bothers me is when a friend doesn't communicate with me that much, then she has a sudden crisis in her life, calls me crying and begging me to call her because I'm "the only person" she wants to tell her troubles to.
Well, I appreciate the compliment, but she is always too busy or distracted to listen to my problems. I resent always being this person's therapist. Usually, that's the way my friendships go...me listening to someone's problems.
Anyway, I apologize for the vent.
Will you mention to your therapist how you feel about her comment? I think it would be very important for you to do so. You were triggered probably because her comment about your "not choosing" to socialize is a painful place for you. Maybe you feel guilty, or inadequate, or some other feelings that need to be dealt with?
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BethRags that I should mention to my therapist how I feel.
I did mention in the past all of my social issues... like in great detail. So, she is definitely aware of what had been going on throughout my adolescence. That is why her comment yesterday came as a shocker.
Also, no need to apologize for the rant. I can relate to having people beg for support, only to never return the favor when you need it the most. It is frustrating and hurtful. I am sorry you had to experience that too.
