@TunedOut

Yes I definitely try too hard. Everything you wrote here is true. I have felt so lost lately. It feels like I am going through a grieving process and I feel completely invisible as I go about my daily life.

I’m doing the work of letting go in my actions and hoping my emotions catch up with me in time. I’m meditating daily now and trying to put focus on my own needs for the time being. I have been looking for validation externally and I need to find it within myself. This is a lifelong habit. I’m seeing the patterns as I journal.

Thank you for your kindness and your encouragement and your support. I reflect on your words and hope in my heart that you are right... that I can get through this and find peace.