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Old Jan 01, 2020, 10:11 AM
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After all the time I’ve wasted for a year, I’ve decided it’s best to be alone-not hop back online.. The reason I didn’t cut this guy off sooner was because Of me being lonely and bored..I was single for 5-6 months before meeting my ex, but the previous relationship I jumped into too fast..almost immediately. So it was doomed for failure. As much as nobody wants to be alone, I’m not in the right mindset emotionally to pick a partner..I don’t even really want to date either...only thing I’m really capable of is friendship right now..I am feeling a bit overwhelmed at the thought of being alone for a while also..I don’t want to go back to hanging out with my ex when I get lonely..that’s what I’ve been doing and I know that it’s because I’m lonely and like the little bit of attention he gave..he was upfront about not having healed from his last relationship after the breakup..I knew he was only capable of casual dating/friends so it’s not like he lied..I just don’t like the constant headgames he played to keep me around like “I don’t want you but I don’t want anyone else to have you either” I had to reflect and be honest with myself..he wants to be alone (was in a LTR for years that ended badly) he’s in therapy, but he has a lot of repressed anger that can take years to recover..SO, new year and as hard as it is, it’s best to just be alone..
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