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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
My therapist unintentionally triggered me today when she brought up the fact I choose not to socialize. Now I'm left thinking about why I've chosen not to socialize. I am left thinking about all those times I was nice to everybody and they treated me like trash in return. Making fun of me, calling me stupid, telling me I'm ugly... Also, people asking me for favors and never giving anything in return, not even a simple "thank you" (which is all I care about really). Then all of my so-called "friends" in school ganging up on me at the same time and going from 12 "friends" to 0 in a heartbeat. You get it.
I don't know if my bipolar has interfered with my social relationships or if I am just a socially awkward person. Either way, i feel bad now.
It's like no matter how hard I try to make friends, no one likes me. That's why I haven't bothered trying to make friends for years now. It's like... why put yourself through that when you've been through that four separate times? Four times is not a coincidence. Maybe you can relate?
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Hello, bluebicycle.
I hope you talked with your therapist about your thoughts and feelings as related to the therapist's triggering you. You are the patient, which means you are in the driver's seat concerning what you get out of your sessions. With this in mind, I think it's appropriate for you to ask what motivated the therapist to say what was said. And I think it's also appropriate to let the therapist know how you took what the therapist said. It's a way to get clarification as to what happened from both of your points of view.
I'm new and hope that what I've written to you is acceptable. I have a concern that I'm going to be writing (saying) the wrong thing to other members here, and it's the very last thing I'd want to do. I really want to be supportive and I also need the support of others.
Please let me know if I've triggered you. I didn't put the warning trigger icon at the beginning of my comment. What I've written to you is something that I've been trying to do with my own therapist. For me, it's amazing how things changed in the sessions for my having discussed what I thought and felt were inappropriate.
For sure, I wish you well and I hope that this new year, 2020, brings into your life the kinds of things that are what you need and want as you continue to progress upon your life's pathway.
Sincerely and respectfully,
Coxhere