I do have a call into my pdoc about this but probably won’t hear back until tomorrow. My 9 year old son has been having really “bad thoughts”. Worse, he has autism so he is entirely obsessed with them and they are all he talks about. He is even saying things like “I wish I was inHeaven now so I didn’t have to feel this” or “I wish I was my old self.” The only thing I can think of that may have triggered this is my fault. He is ADHD and I’ve never given him his pills on the weekends or summers, long breaks, etc and never thought much of it. But now, suddenly, he is having all of these thoughts shortly after I stopped giving him his pills (for Xmas break). Apparently, that can cause different sorts of psychological issues such as anxiety and depression. As soon as I realized what was likely going on, I restarted his meds but that’s been like 5 days ago and he is still miserable and it’s making me feel so sad for him. I’m worried I may have triggered something. I am looking for advice here. And also, one of those “bad thoughts” is that he will kill his family. He keeps telling me “mom, I keep thinking about killing my family but I don’t want to.” That’s incredibly worrisome to me but my mom doesn’t want me to tell any professionals and to have him not say that particular thing for fear they may call child protective services or something. Is that correct? I don’t see my personal pdoc (the one I will take him to) doing this but I’ve never had homicidal thoughts before either. What are your thoughts on this?