Back again still struggling. I just hate this feeling! :-(

I don't feel as bad as I did about feeling jealous of T now that I can see I'm not the only one to experience this.

I'm just really struggling with the jealousy itself. Even though I understand that T's life may not actually be as perfect as it seems, this does nothing to lessen the jealousy I feel and the belief that my life will never be "good enough" for me to feel satisfied with it.

I'm ashamed to say I've noticed recently that I experience jealousy of other people's lives too, not just T's, so it is something I struggle with. However I think that it is magnified in the therapy relationship because unlike the relationships I have with people outside of therapy, I don't see or hear about any of the bad stuff, plus T also happens to be one of the most successful people I interact with on a regular basis in terms of wealth and career.

Any ideas as to how I can lessen these feelings of jealousy towards T ( and others for that matter ) would be much appreciated.

As I have previously said, bringing up the issue with T directly isn't a feasible option as I can't risk being terminated if she takes it badly knowing I googled her, which she probably would as she's very cold and distant as a T.

I look forward to your feedback. Thanks!