yeah. i can go on... ;-)
sometimes people are logged into chat but they aren't there. they went to take the garbage out or they went to the bathroom or whatever. so... someone goes into chat and there seems to be about 10 people there and says 'hey!' and... no response. it isn't personal, though, that is the point.

or sometimes people are in the middle of a lighthearted conversation... and someone comes in who is upset or distressed and people don't know what to say to them... or sometimes people are in the middle of an intense and intimate conversation (about sexual abuse or whatever) and someone comes in who is more lighthearted and people don't know what to say to them... it can be hard, yeah. i think there might well be a group or two of people who like to fairly much chat to each other, too (i get the impression that there is a group of teens who fairly much stick to each other because when people find how old they are they sometimes start telling them what to do etc, for example).

sometimes it helps to start out chatting during the times that a chat is hosted (with doc john, for example). over time you can find out who you seem to click with on the boards and chat when you see them in chat.

i haven't chatted in a while... looking for dinosaurs... do ya still chat dino??

sorry you are feeling depressed today. sorry if i'm overwhelming with my rambelling. can you do something nice and gentle and soothing for yourself? maybe go see a movie... or get a novel... have a bubblebath, put on some perfume... something like that?