Hi. I'm new here. I don't know if I am bipolar. I don't have a diagnosis. I suspect I might be, but I don't know for sure. I've had struggles with bad depression and feeling suicidal. I currently take Cymbalta for depression and I think it is mostly working. I'm actually the least concerned with the depression aspect.

My other more troubling problem is that I feel like a part time sex addict. I got into a lot of trouble a few years ago with this. Affairs, hook-ups with strangers, etc. I almost wound up divorced and I destroyed at least one friendship. Thankfully, I was able to work things out with my husband, but I can't get away with cheating on him ever again. I'm leaving out a lot of details, but it was pretty awful, like I was living through a soap opera. It took me up until now to mostly get over all that happened (lots of guilt and shame). It took a long time and a lot of work to get my husband to trust me again too.

My current concern is that I feel wicked frisky again and it makes me feel like a freak. I don't want to talk to my husband about it because I don't want him to worry about me or start distrusting me again. I feel weird talking to my friends about this stuff. I'm bisexual too, so I worry about being inappropriate with my friends because I have done that before. I came here because I would like to talk to people who maybe get what I feel like. I'm trying to make sure I reach out and stay connected to other people. If I spend too much time with my own thoughts I start drifting off into my own fantasy land. If I spend too much time there, without communicating with other people, I start getting into trouble because then I'll act on fantasies thinking it's a good idea. I can't have that happening again because I'm a wife and mother who has a full time job.

Please reply if you can relate. Thanks