Hello,

I am in a 10 yrs relation with a woman that I really love

I find sex with her sweet and enjoyable.

I cheated her around 20 times till now - mostly with escorts/prostitutes that do protected oral sex to me.

I sometimes watch porn and masturbate, but not very much.

I also did sometimes 2 somehow strange things:

- did protected oral sex to men even tho I am not gay (but after watching many porn, I became aroused with penises and the act of doing oral sex, till I could no longer resist in doing this fantasy in real life);

- in very crowded buses I like to touch with woman and I become aroused

I had only one affair with a women and did also normal sex with her - but after a while also the sex intensity with my affair diminished.

In conclusion, only one time I did normal sex with another woman, but oral sex with many others.

I do not necessarily enjoy doing sexually stuff with other women, I cheat mostly out of impulse, and because I think and fantasize a lot about other women - till the point I cannot resist to do something sexually with a stranger.

After doing sexually stuff with another women, I loss interest in that woman. I do love my 10yrs gf.

I cheat, anyway, only occasionally.

With doing this I feel that I add some intensity to my life. Something that makes me escape the daily routine.

This whole thing does not affect much my life, only that I start to pose myself plenty questions about me. Also that much of the time I fantasize about other women.

I have some problem? I don't think is necessary to find a therapist, I think in my country many are not well prepared and very expensive.