Hey there! This sounds like me a few years ago. I would be so into a guy, allow them to pursue me and then once they were giving me all the attention and showing genuine interest...something in my head would whisper “Run!” and then I would start orchestrating an exit strategy. I laugh at it now but back then I was really concerned that maybe I was shut off to actually experiencing love and true lasting love. Well now I’m currently single (by choice) and it’s because I realized that the Icky feeling was me feeling uncomfortable with them connecting with me on a more deep level, because I had so many insecurities about myself! So that’s why I’m currently single. When I look back, they were decent guys, I just wasn’t ready to love anyone before I knew how to love myself. So hopefully the next guy gets 150% of me because I’ve put in a lot of work internally.

I hope you receive the love you deserve!