you know i asked my t many times about this... because to tell you the truth i would much rather believe that my memories are constructed... not true... i would much rather believe that it was my sick mind that was making up these pictures that flash in my head... or the memories my body holds... even the ones that i have always remembered ... i would much rather believe that it is me... not my dad... not my babysitter ... not my mom's boy friend... i would rather think i had sex with him... then believe that he was at fault ... that i made the men in my life do those things to me... that i really wanted them too... and if did happen... they are real i would much rather think that i did something to cause it to happen... after didn't i ... that's what i was told?...lyn