@bpcyclist: Thanks for the encouraging words about my anniversary and sorry you are in the same boat. I'll try and think of something positive to do to commemorate the day. I'm doubtful tho. Funny how you describe your mom. My mom was the same! Great at the mechanics of living: three meal a day, neat tidy home, clean clothes for all. And yet so cold emotionally. I also had a sibling she adored. I always felt left out.