i love your honest conversation here. this is important for you to tell everything that will help you feeling more relief. you really do love her you just need to share your pain with her. and there are many way you can recover for yourself. it is not good for your mental and physical health having chat with many women for fun. it can be the reason why you are here because you can not take it and upsetting yourself mentally. why it is so hard to resist for you?? is that because they are keep coming back to you and wanting you to have sex with them??? first thing is you need to strong? and share your issues with your doctor as well beside her (who is you love). your fiance may help you out if she is really understandable person i believe she will be because you love her. this is serious because it is causes you a lot mental reason i guess.