I’m not sure if this feeling will pass soon, but I am feeling worse and worse each day and I’m not sure how to resolve these issues at work.

I am sick to my stomach.
My sleep has been disturbed.
Teeth grinding then a terrible headache by my ear.
My thoughts bounce around in circles and I cannot problem solve because I am so anxious.

I keep thinking I have a handle on things, but then I get caught up not able to sleep again. My stomach is BURNING! I am not well!

My boss is playing games I feel, and trying to prove points (which she admits). she says she is working on “boundaries.” She goes around saying she is doing everyone’s job. She is always tooting her own horn, and complaining that no one understands anything but her. She says she can do everything faster than everyone else. She constantly says others (outside our office) aren’t that great at their job, or others don’t know what they are doing..on and on. She is always better than everyone else.

She is always wrestling with her ego and esteem. She is always making commentary.

She won’t see it, but it seems quite obvious to my coworker and I that she says one thing, and then she contradicts herself. You can’t keep up. She is so intense.

She talks to me a lot and wastes my time a lot, and then snaps at me whenever she says I am wasting her time.

She says disturbing things about others; which I try to be cool about because I know she is ultra competitive. But sometimes she goes too far with her critiques and can be very rude.

Her repeated outbursts of emotion and anxious stress and aggression have scrambled my brain at this point and for some reason the turmoil has brought me to feel like a complete incompetent waste of space at work. I don’t feel safe. I can be ridiculed and toyed with at her whim i fear. She praises me by putting down others. She acts like she is very irritated with me at times, and other times she bounces her thoughts and feelings off me. I can’t tell if she thinks I’m capable and not taking enough charge or speed..or if she thinks I’m clueless and she wants me to know it. I think she has some issue about connecting with others...she seems very superficial and backstabbing. But she can also be nice and generous..but what’s her motive? She’s moody!!

She says she is working too much and something has to give. I want to help and make things easier and better but I get paralyzed about making decisions that involve her, because she is so superior. I’m terrified of her at this point because she has my nerves so frazzled. I don’t want to be on her hit list. My insecurity about not having tons of experience makes things worse for me.

I hear so much negativity come from her sometimes which is so ironic because she is talking about positive energy and abundance, etc.

It’s amazing that I can vent this out but still gain no insight or find any permanent relief. What am I doing wrong Here?

My husbands annoyed with me it seems because I’m complaining about work and not sleeping well. He wants me to be fine. I WANT TO BE FINE! But how? How can I fix this?