Hi everyone,

I post from time to time in the 'OCD' section but unsure where to post this one. Had an awful time with my medication over Christmas period. Went on Mirtazapine few months ago and was doing OK till mid December when it started to keep me awake all night, I literally couldn't sleep. Came off it for a few days and struggled so went back on it, couldn't sleep for anything so have been off it since Christmas Day. I have an appt with the Community Mental Health doctor on Tues so struggling through till then.

However, since coming off the medication (first time medication free in 9yrs) I have had trouble with really bad intrusive thoughts. These can be really perverted, distressing and really graphic. I feel utterly disgusted that these are coming into my head and I can't stop them. At the moment its relentless from moment I get up to time I go to bed. I'm stopping myself doing things I enjoy as I feel I need to be punished for having these thoughts and that something awful will happen if I go through with actions. I've tried calming my mind and using distraction techniques but the thoughts are really strong. I wanted to come off the meds as was sick of being on them but think I may have to try something different. Any suggestions as to what might help me?