I've been having the same concerns as cophfe posted here.
I did the test here, and I score 35, which is supposed to be what all autistic persons get. I mean, those who have the most severe type of autism.
While watching Netflix's series "Atypical", I've felt pretty connected with what happens to the main character.
But is it possible to have autism at 39 without any previous diagnosis? I only take medicine for anxiety, which I've tried to stop using several times, but it turns out that life becomes even more unbearable.
Well, I'm on holiday now, and all I've managed to do is keep inside my house and do nothing, except reading books and watching TV.