Thanks to you all for replying. I’m really struggling and have spent the night going between awake and crying and dreaming about him contacting me and saying he realises he upset me and he is sorry and that he really cares about me, which in reality is never going to happen. I don’t feel like I can get out of bed today. I wasn’t expecting for it to feel this bad as it was me that terminated not him. I am scared I’m going to be weak and email him again telling him I made a mistake and I want to come back. Logically I know this would be the worst thing to do as he would just continue to cause me harm, but then I tell myself that maybe I got it wrong and I misinterpreted his behaviour. Why would I want to go back to something that has made me feel so bad for the past few months?