Thanks for posting your concern here in the Sexual and Gender Issues forum. I had hoped other PC members who have some knowledge & / or experience with BDSM would reply. However since that has yet to occur I thought I would at least offer my thoughts.

Perhaps other PC members will yet see your post & reply. Sometimes the reason a particular thread does not receive a reply is that the right members have just not seen the post. However the other possibility that occurs to me here is your age. BDSM is what is typically referred to as a "kink". (Perhaps you already know that.) And kinks are generally considered to be appropriate subject matter for people who are 18 years of age & older. There are forum websites dedicated to different types of kinks. But any of them I'm familiar with are age restricted.

I went back & re-read all 3 of your posts on this subject. And I'm not exactly sure what you were looking for in terms of an reply. (Perhaps you weren't either?) You wrote, in one of your posts, that some clarity wouldn't hurt. Kinks are actually more common than most people would imagine according to sex therapist Robert Weiss. And BDSM is just one of many. As I understand it, there has not been much research that has been done in the areas of kinks (as well as fetishes which is a related subject) because in general they are not considered to be problematic in-&-of themselves. As long as a person is able to indulge their kink (or fetish) in a safe (& legal) way it's simply their own business & no one else's.

Where a kink (or a fetish) can become problematic is if it causes the person who has it to develop significant levels of anxiety, guilt & shame over having it. And in that case the services of a mental health therapist may be needed to help the individual come to terms with their kink (or fetish). (I do see that you list yourself as being in India. And I don't know what kinds of social pressures you may face there that might cause difficulties with your BDSM interests.) I was glad to read, however, that you've been going to a therapist for the last 4-5 months.

At age 17, I presume it is possible your BDSM interests may fade over time. Perhaps they're simply a part of the normal types of sexual exploration & fantasizing we all go through during our teenage years. But it's also possible, I would presume, that BDSM is something that will continue to be of interest to you more-or-less permanently. And, in that case, once you've turned 18 your interest may be one you'll want to explore further. It is important though to do so carefully since BSDM can be, I believe, a kink that can put one into some potentially dangerous situations if one is not cautious.

Anyway... these are my thoughts with regard to your posts. We here on PC cannot offer mental health diagnoses. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I really can't comment on the possibility of you being diagnosable as having masochistic personality disorder. That would be something you would need to discuss with your therapist. My best wishes to you...