I finally got some appointments. Yes...some.

I was supposed to see my new therapist again tomorrow at 11:00. But I am just too swamped with work...I just can't leave like that. My boss is breathing down my neck to get stuff done, and nobody is even taking lunch anymore. I can't do it tomorrow.

So I called to reschedule. He can't get me in until the 16th. Fine. I took that.

So...still working on the meds side. Finally got two mental health Nurse Practitioners to call me back...and ironically, they both set up an appointment for 10:00 on the 24th. The first one I was thinking "next Thursday", then when the second one called I was thinking "the 24th"....well...duh, hello, they are the same day.

So I do have both those appointments but obviously need to cancel one.

Called my OB doctor - and even after my therapist talked to her...she can't squeeze me into her schedule until the first week of May.

So....I guess I have to just wait until the 16th to see that therapist, and the 24th to get some meds. Hopefully I can hold out that long. It'll take another month or two for the meds to even work... ...it's just so frustrating.

The problem is...I'm not even sure I can do the 24th. It'll be right in the middle of the workday. I'm already taking off early on Friday for a CPA prep class that weekend. I know I won't really be "swamped" with work then....but I can't just leave for an hour & a half without some kind of explanation to my boss.

Ugh. I just hate this. I don't have time to get better. I ruined the only chance I had at a therapist who would work after hours....the only one in town was that one who I thought was inappropriate. But maybe he wasn't. I don't know. But I ruined that. Now I'm stuck.