Man, this would simply be a marriage built on deceit.

Is this really what you want? Is this what she would want? If the answer to either of these two questions is no, you have no business marrying her.

You appear to lack the decency of respect for your future wife.

Would fantasizing work for you? I realize not everyone will agree with me, but I personally see no harm in it. I indulge myself, and I see it as no one else's business (unless you make the choice to share).

Sorry for pontificating, but I couldn't seem to dig up any accolades to give you.