Admittedly, no, I have not done this before.

Are you seeing a psychiatrist or a therapist right now? If you are, can you bring this problem up with them? It sounds like maybe your current coping mechanisms aren't working very well and maybe you need new ideas to manage these symptoms.

Sorry to hear you're struggling like this, though. No one deserves to go through this, and I am sad to hear that so many of us have to deal with this. I hope you find solace soon.