I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Yes, I have absolutely experienced what you describe--exactly the wasy you describe it. Exactly. I have been on too many antidepressants to even mention, but the one that has worked best is Wellbutrin. It is pretty side effect-free for me, too. The other that was pretty good was Cymbalta.

I do find lithium helps a lot with depression, but it does have some baggage. Lamictal didn't do squat for me. Total waste. Emsasm sometimes can work for folks, It may still come in a patch form, not sure, but may be worth looking inoto.

Sending you positive thoughts and comfort. Feel better.