@~Christina: I'm sorry your kids disappointed you when you made such a huge effort to be there. I am reminded of the song "Cat's in the Cradle."

In my news things are calm and quiet and i was pleased that my neighbor who i was hostile to last Fall when i was unwell emailed me about getting together so a dog she is sitting can play with my dog. It will be nice to see her, i have really missed her. The only thing is that i'm feeling really quiet and cannot really carry on a conversation. But we'll laugh at the dogs and hopefully that will be enough. She's seen me in this state before.