Hey. Thanks for the different opinions.
Yeah I know nobody here can dx you, it’s just my pdoc is terrible so thought I check in what u all thought.
I’ve decided that I am just gonna enjoy feeling good for now. And if I still can’t sleep tonite I will contact my pdoc to see if he can give me something to help me get some sleep.
I really tried to sleep, layed in bed for hours, saw the sun come up thru my window. Sleep wouldn’t come.
Insomnia is a *****. But I just feel so relieved to not be feeling depressed. Like, hey I remember this version of me and have missed her. Depression sucks the life out of everything. Even with being sans sleep, I am feeling pretty good today. Work isn’t too terrible today.
Idk. I was feeling really good and in a good place to talk to my ex but my new year goal of honesty didn’t work out so well in my favor. Total mind fack. I am hoping the gym tires me out later and that sleep comes easy tonite.

Anyway, part of me thinks maybe this is more than a good mood. Another part says no way, this is just me catching up on all I missed while depressed and I shouldn’t be medicalizing happiness! And a lot of me doesn’t give a crap, so long as Im feeling okay.

But I will keep an eye out in case my first pdoc was right all along and this is more bipolary than unipolary. Take care. Silver lining- I didn’t get caught up in my ex’s charm, Jedi mind trick crap; I saw him for the walking disaster he truly is and saying goodbye was to tbat was easy.