ccl, i so relate..online is new to me..and sometimes it scares me how close i feel to the people on the site..but i do think that all of the friends we make here are very Real and Valid..As for guys..look around at the ones you see on the street...and maybe you'll decide, as i have..that right now...the guys here are exactly what i need..they're warm, funny, supportive..and they don't hurt me...that's fine for me. keep talking..i like to hear what you say...Mac