Don't trust T. Don't trust anyone. Cannot see any way out. T does not listen. No one listens. Cannot figure out how to get anyone to listen... Have never had any supposed therapist who "gets it". And therefore, it must be my fault, right? What is wrong with me that I cannot find anyone to be on my side? I must really be some kind of monster.

I have been reading a book by one of the Japanese-Americans who were interned in a "relocation camp" in World War II. I did not realize it, but she knew some of my own family. (My father was a school principal in one of the camps.) Anyway, her experiences mirror my own in some ways: living in a society that treated her as an enemy, when that society was her own. (She was a teenager and American-born.) Always having to be afraid. Being abandoned by most of the dominant society, and having to rely almost solely upon family and fellow internees. Exploited by having home and possessions taken over by others. Having to abandon pets who consequently did not survive.

Not that I have had all these experiences, but the one of being "different" and having no one who is prepared to hear the reality of what we have gone through, that part I have. In my case, even family could not be relied upon.

<font color=" red">Scream!</font>

(How do I make text giant-sized?)