I am confused, that’s why I’m here. Ok getting honest with myself isn’t hard because I don’t want to be honest, it’s hard because I can’t see things clearly all the time. I love my girlfriend. I am having a hard time bridling my sexual needs in a celibate relationship. I fantasize when I shouldn’t. I agree with you, I’m a confused jerk. But I know who I love. I don’t love this other girl. She is very pretty but in reality it would be a mistake to be with her. Maybe I needed to write it down to be clear to myself. I will not be leaving my girlfriend. I will work on seeing reality as it is and stop fantasizing in irrationality. You might notice I struggle with psychosis in schizoffective disorder. That is a real struggle, not something made up.
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schizoaffective bipolar type
Lithium, Trazodone, Klonopin, Abilify, Zoloft
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