Hi emijec. I am genuinely sorry to hear of the loss of your children by miscarriage. A mother is physically and emotionally connected to the child in the womb and losing a child must be terribly sad and depressing.

I am not an expert on this topic but I have found that loss can be a very challenging thing to face.

Here are people more aware of the details of coping with this type of loss
Depression After Miscarriage Common, Even Years Later

Your Emotions After Miscarriage | Maternity Matters

Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Perinatal Loss: An Empty Cradle | The Savvy Shrink

Going on a Bear Hunt: Coping with Miscarriage | Maternity Matters

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