I'm so sorry you are struggling, Lavieilamant. These things are always so hard. But I think you have the right idea. When you're in the storm, it's just survival. Lower your expectations for the moment. This is your current reality. It is not the permanent reality. I have also been having a very hard time and when I am at my worst, I sometimes have to just take it about one minute at a time. And when I make it to the end of that minute, then, I start working on the next present minute. One foot, then the other. Don't worry about the whole, big, giant mess or fixing it or controlling it. You can't do any of those things right now.

Feeling utterly powerless is a scary and painful place. But you are not alone. Many other people here on PC suffer a similar road. You can do this. Just try to focus on the small, doable things. I was going to write a lot today, but I did almost nothing. I suddenly took a huge mood and energy downturn today. So I readjusted. My goal now is to finish this post and go try to sleep. That's it. Not judging myself because I did not get more done today. I do what I can do.

So, be gentle with yourself. Stop judging. Just do what you can do. And you will make it.