I am still really sad ? Hurt? Unwanted nor needed.

I know kids grow up and have there own lives.. maybe I expect too much ?

My husband said one day we might just not be able to make the trips anymore since this one was so hard on us both. Today ? I have no desire to go back.. maybe if I don’t go and just stay home with our dogs one of his kids will offer him a bed or even a couch ?

It’s times like this I really wonder ... What is the point of it all ? This life?