Struggling. Cried on the way to the office last night. I feel like I keep trying to solve the same problems, running in the same circles, and getting no where. It's the type of thing that a therapist or coach should be perfect for, but I can't seem to find any that actually understand or help in any way.

My brain feels like it's rotting with boredom. I'm getting more administrative stuff at work. I need to find a new job, but am just... overwhelmed by all of it. Ugh.

And, tired... didn't sleep well, restless last night.

I don't know. I don't understand why everything feels so hard. Part of me thinks that I need to take a leave of absence, because my job is just... crushing the life out of me. But, I'm scared that I won't get anything accomplished with the time off. I had three weeks (!) off at Christmas, and even though I tried, I didn't get anything done!