Hi BethRags. I'm glad you managed to find your Zyprexa. I also hope that your depression will lift soon. Like bpcyclist, in the past I have also felt exactly how you described (wishing I could sleep through a depression and wake up better).

I'm not sure what to suggest in terms of medications. I can't take antidepressants, but I know they help many people with bipolar disorder. Lamictal has been helpful for me in the past. I am sorry it is not doing so for you. I do think Seroquel XR has been very helpful for curbing/preventing my depression, but if I recall correctly, I think you said you dislike Seroquel? Maybe I'm not remembering correctly. I also think my small dose of Latuda has been helpful, and it's primarily known to be good for bipolar depression, but it can be a bit expensive, unless you can use their online coupon to its greatest advantage. Unlike Seroquel and Seroquel XR, Latuda was never really sedating for me. It also seems to be weight neutral.