Depression has spread a cloud over my memories, and so I doubt my ability to assess myself correctly. Nevertheless, I am perhaps better equipped than any of the professionals I see, or have seen, to do so.

The idea that depression, and perhaps depression-anxiety, is "multi-factorial" attracts me. I am trying to tease apart dysfunctions that developed later from traits anchored in early childhood. I have little to show for my musings.

Perhaps the best conclusion I can currently reach is that circadian stresses to which I was subject in my active adult years unleashed processes, both physical and psychological, that resulted in my own "crash" around twenty years ago.