argh! I'm getting so frustrated...looking in the mirror now, I'm seeing myself as fat. I was in denial for a long time. I really hope this fasting works because I'm running out of realistic options! I'm in a good mood today, but this is bumming me out. I mean, how can I still feel sexy and like disgusted at myself at the same time? weird. I mean, i don't know if I'm "disgusted"...it's just for a long time I thought my weight/appearance was fine...but recent photos, especially me compared to others (granted they are pretty thin, but still), I mean I look huge! I dunno. bleh!