Thanks Lonesome. I can understand how you feel regarding the wedding ring. Something like that can be hugely significant to us clients. It would make me wonder a lot of things as well, especially if my newly married T took her ring off at some point and then resumed wearing it some time later. I can see myself struggling with different feelings over it like wondering if they had split up and then feeling awful if they hadn't. It's great you were able to be open with your T about those feelings and that it has helped. Talking to my T about her wedding has helped me too, but I haven't gone into it much. The discussion has been around my fear of loss and her reassurance that I'm not losing her, but I think there's more about the depth of my feelings that needs to be said, I don't know. Fortunately she is a great T and never gets defensive or anything, so I know what I say she will handle well and be empathic about.

There's a chance T might be okay to see me tomorrow morning. I don't know yet. She can't on Friday as she is away, so tomorrow is the only chance. She said in her text she doesn't want to miss seeing me, she knows I'm upset, but that she's poorly. I'm torn between horrendous feelings of wanting her to be okay for the wedding and not push herself to see me, and the utter pain and desperation that I absolutely need to see her before she gets married because I need to talk about it. I guess if I can't see her, I will survive it, and she will probably try and see me soon after she's back. But I am hurting so much and want to talk about her wedding so it feels terrible timing right now. It's the first time she has ever cancelled on the day, too!