Thank you for caring and making me think.

i went in today and i still hadnt decided what to do. when she asked me if i had decided, i started crying. then i pulled myself together and explained the best i could what was (is) going on in my mind.

we talked about what happened and she liked me saying i think the issue is fixable but maybe im taking it as an excuse to do what i really want to do… quit. i think its best for everyone.

i have brought in a few writings. she said she will read them.

i asked whether or not she'd allow further contact and she said yes and she also said she needed to read the writings and we should consider ourselves as taking a break instead of ending therapy. which means we didnt book next appt but we can take time, think and then decide whether it is a real end or not. and let each other know...

this made me feel good….

Tomorrow i see the other T and im planning on saying about the same stuff… we'll see what he will say… maybe i'll ask him if we can do quite the same thing i did with T today. i think it would make me feel good.

and then we'll see how it goes without therapy. i've been in therapy on and off since 2007, so this is major change.

im afraid i'll feel lonely and needing contact but i want to keep my word. maybe no contact is too much, but i dont want to go back either….

we ended the session with a hug

thank you for your sharing and your support. you have been very helpful to me. Thank you all!