Hi Everyone, what I am struggling with right now is ambivalence. I've struggled with this for a while actually. I want to want to stop self harming. But I'm not sure I can say I want to stop self harming. I know there's lots of good reasons to stop self harming. But it's always been my "go to" y'know, that one thing I can count on. Pastor T is kind of pushing me in this topic. Saying our goals aren't aligned. How do you deal with the ambivalence? How do you get past it? Of course I want to be free from Self harm. I want to live my life without it. But....there's always that but. How do I get past that to fully committing to recovery? Pastor T seemed at a loss. IDK what to do. I'm going to discuss with regular T and see what she has to say. I'm struggling to not feel like a failure in therapy with Pastor T. All the things he kept asking me, I was like IDK. He was like, what if you had a friend that was an alcoholic? What would you say to them? IDK. I'm not in that position. I'm pretty non-judgy. If a person needs a drink then y'know, just try to be safe, don't drive that kind of thing. That wasn't the right answer. I know what he is trying to do. He is trying to get me to see self harm as an addiction like drinking or drugs or something like that. Which in some ways it is, but I think in other ways it might be different? I just can't seem to get past this ambivalence. Any advice would be great. HUGS all, Kit