I think I get what kind of crazy this is. sometimes when my mind is tired, I take a backseat but don't feel safe enough to shut down completely. I spoke to my T about a similar problem recently and they way I described it was that I felt there was a conversation going on around me that I'm incapable of participating in. The thoughts I find myself surrounded by are not things I like to hear but I feel the need to entertain the idea to protect what I'm really feel if you could feel me on that one.