I've hd two women leave very long-term relationships with me over my illness, one, basically, because she is a bi***. The other is at core a good woman, but she just does not have the skills to deal with my situation up-close anymore, even though she refuses to officially leave me. So weird.

One foot in front of the other. Sometimes, I have to take it one or two minutes at a time. Make very small goals. Stop judging myself. I have a life-threatening illness and am doing the best I can. So on.

Keep pushing ahead! You can slog through this and it will get better. We are behind you!!