Sorry this is so long. I came out as trans a couple months ago. I explained to my T I have felt like this for 15 years but when I told a previous T she just said I was confused, and that messed me up so badly I didn’t tell anyone again until I met this new T. She instantly understood. She brought in my mom and it was a big deal. She gave me the name of a doctor/surgeon and said he will for sure take me seriously and be able to help me.

Last week she was very weird during my session. I thought maybe it was me but she has said before that she gets moody and try’s not take it out on clients. But we talked about my transition and she said “you know, because you have mental illness, transitioning and being on testarone may not be the best.” I explained that people with gender dysphoria have a higher risk of suicide. She said nothing to that.

I don’t get it. Why would she give me the names of doctors and promise that something will happen and now she’s saying it’s a bad idea? A couple months ago she even demanded I stop losing weight because it was a bad idea for my transition. Now I’m 30 pounds heavier as a result of that and she’s saying I have binge eating disorder. I basically feel like she gave me false hope about my future. Does anyone have any suggestions? I see the new doctor next week.