Tuesday's session so not exactly today.

I read to him from my diary about our last rupture- from when he went away for a week in october and also didn't respond to an email I sent him. Using his own words that he was sorry and would try to be less unpredictable.

That I didn't know where he was and I could not reach him.

That he did the same thing again, but this time the time he was away was longer. That he was a rule breaker. (10 days reply time during holidays. )

I told him that it felt like he always changed the rules, without telling me first. That he did previously reply whilst he was away.

He logged into his email account and read the email I sent. it was just "Hi with a smiley face and my name. He laughed and said that it didn't look like it needed a reply. If I don't want a reply I write it at the bottom.

He backtracked when I began to cry.

He apologized for not seeing what i needed.

I said i don't think he knew me if after three years he didn't know why email was important to me.

He brought up dependency. I said that was basic T 101.

He asked what was going on when I emailed.
Actually an fight between my parents- but I didn't tell him that I'd also been called a pig, a ***** and that i was no good.

We had the exact same rupture before in october and it actually took until the 27th of november to sort out. It just feels like he did the same thing again.

I don't trust the fact that he will be there for me and the fact that he did seem to get it before.