I did see T today and we talked. I wasn't able to say everything, but I told her I loved her and also that it felt quite childlike in how I am afraid of losing her to her new husband. T was so empathic and told me I wasn't going to lose her and everything would be the same as it always has been. Some of the feelings she guessed for me and then we talked about them. She said she wanted to talk openly about how I am feeling about the wedding. She asked me what would help and if I would like her to text me on her wedding day so she's going to do that. I can text her at any point while she's away on honeymoon. She's also going to show me a photo of her and the groom after asking if I'd like to see one. I gave her a small present at the end and she said she is going to have it on her at the wedding. Did I ever mention I have an amazing T? The feelings won't just vanish, but seeing her today really helped.