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Originally Posted by giddykitty
Update!
Phew!
That site seems to be working now! (and this one too *fingers crossed they stay working) Hopefully that will be the end of that...but it sure is a wakeup call. Boy I sure don't cope very well in these situations. Maybe if it does happen again, I'll be a little more secure...(???) Is it a sign of anxiety if you do everything you can to sort of create a backup plan if this should ever happen again?? Am I crazy?? Or is it just crazy when my priority is on this and not my household? I think maybe I'm just feeling a little guilty about that...but I'm also super emotional because well, I'm emotionally attached to these sites (like PC too), and it sort of creates some stability in my life and also some excitement! I don't know. I'm definitely rambling right now...  |
gittykitty, you are definitely not crazy! Though my experiences may make me think about the answers to your questions differently than you, perhaps not all differently.
I've grieved, to varying degrees, when sources of support either ended or seemed to go sour, making me leave or someone else. It is sad!
I think "backup plans" are a good idea. They are a protective measure. We all need such them for a wide variety of things in life.The fact that you visit more than one online community is a good protective measure. Losing the "one and only" and being left alone is frightening for almost everyone. Fear of rejection or loss of anything is something many of us have. I think that having a mental illness exacerbates such a fear. I know that few people here can say that their illness hasn't, at some time, ruined or prevented a relationship, to some degree.
I have definitely neglected household duties as a result of being online, particularly for social interactions. I'll admit that I'm fortunate that my husband rarely gets mad if he comes home and sees dishes in the sink or even, occasionally, dinner not really made. I don't make a habit of neglecting too much, and he knows that. My husband understands and loves me unconditionally. I'm really lucky. That knowledge does allow me to feel more at ease about letting some things fall to the wayside. It's a shame that not everyone is like that with others.