I don't want to get too personal with it -- but the stressors and triggers are at both home and work, and interconnect. Work issues relate to at home issues, which in turn affect work issues. Then that exacerbates home problems by the work issues... you get the idea. The whole situation isn't ideal but both living situation and the necessity of this job isn't changing anytime soon. No one understands how all this is affecting me and they just dismiss me because "it should be easy". I left work early yesterday from the panic attack and sat in my car for 4 hours in the parking lot until my shift was over before coming home because I didn't want to listen to a non-ending lecture about how I am stupid for leaving work and how I will lose my job and all that (not a real probability, but that's what I'll hear -- words to put fear and doubt into my head and heart). So when I'm not having a panic attack I have extreme anxiety and really high stress. It's crippling.