I'm not judging or blaming. There have been times in my life and may be again in which I did not have any desire or enough to change my thinking. There is evidence that suggests that thinking differently can help one to feel differently.

Depression is far more complex than that. I find that I need to keep a step ahead of my depression. I need to be grateful for what is good in my life every day. Simple things like coffee or knowing that I'm going somewhere I want to go on the weekend. If I think about my sadness most of the time it does tend to take priority. I need to acknowledge my sadness but balance it with focus on what good I can see. If I do this I can manage my depression most of the time.

There are times that I wake up crying. I have a hard time changing that channel. I might just accept that I will have a sad day. But, I have strategies for escaping those thoughts and feelings. I paint or journal or color or take a walk.

It's a lot of work. I wish I did not have so much pain but I will fight falling into the black hole with all of my strength. I know that if I fall in it will take a long long time to find my way out.