I'd suggest taking little steps and start doing things by yourself. For example try to do something that you usually do with other people entirely by yourself. Also try to work on yourself as much as you possibly can. You deserve to Love Yourself! I am so sorry if this isn't of too much help. I do Hope in any case that you'll be able to get through ALL of this and that you'll be able to appreciate Yourself more! WE ARE ALL HERE AND WE ARE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU, MY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Buffy01, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!