I'm having a tough time getting going this morning. I got to sleep later than I should have, and then my initial sleep was unpleasant. To my knowledge and hubby's, I have never had any signs of sleep apnea, but every once in a while I will wake up in a startle, feeling like I can't breathe. I sometimes wonder if it is related to an anesthesia awareness event I had once in the past (where I couldn't, or felt like I couldn't, breathe). That was frightening. It was taken very seriously after I reported it, as there are generally only about 30,000 cases every year and many fewer during the procedure I was receiving. Even the anesthesiologist came to interview me about it the next day. Luckily, it never happened again.


I did eventually reach a good sleep, but when the alarm went off I was in such a half-awake state that I screamed and almost knocked it off my dresser. Hubby had been up and antsy so volunteered to do all of the morning tasks that I usually do. He put on breakfast at 6:25 am, which is earlier than usual. I went down clearly in a zombie state. Then he sweetly volunteered to make his own lunch.


I cancelled my participation in a Meetup tomorrow. I have ZERO desire to go. Actually, I am having all kinds of crazy thoughts that I won't go into. Nothing dangerous. I feel paralyzed today.